[edit] I would like to plug Krissy at ShimmerLikeGold.Org because I read her post on Goldfrapp, and I am listening to their music right now, very awesome music!!!!! That’s all haha. [/edit]

I got my monthly gift yesterday, so I am definitely not pregnant. Not only is it a relief that there is no fertilized egg growing in my uterus, but I also didn’t have to pay for a pregnancy test haha. Thanks everyone who commented and your comments were greatly appreciated trust me!!!

I missed Day 3 of the 365 Pictures Project Yesterday So I decided to upload both Day 3 and Day 4 at once, they are obviously two different pictures haha. Kind of like cheating but I still stayed true and took pictures both days.

The reason I missed yesterday was cause I hung out with friends visiting for Winter Break from college. They will be going back for Spring Term soon so we all decided to hang out. It was nice but we have definitely all grown up and a little apart. Same humor, just a little more on the adult side and maybe a bit more vulgar (if that was even possible haha.

I’m a little bit happier right now. The fact that I am not pregnant sure helps a lot, but everything seemed to fix itself in the past ten minutes. Like I said in my last post, I’ve been feeling really drained and unhappy. I thought I lost my best friend because she stopped talking to me but she has given me a chance and we’re going to go out for coffee tomorrow. I feel like our problems just got so far where it was unbearable to talk to each other anymore, but we are going to give it a shot again. After all, we’ve known each other for a six years.

Also my boyfriend and I are great right now. I don’t really see a problem except for the fact that I would like some more attention but I understand he’s going through a hard time and needs to get everything back on track. I try to be as supportive as possible but it can be a bit hard at times to not think of myself first.

My guitar playing is doing great I am almost done learning a song that feels very accomplishing.

Here are my pictures for Day 3 and Day 4 of 365 Pictures, be aware that the picture on top is actually Day 4, I realized I should have done the opposite and put Day 3 on top but I already uploaded this picture to Fotolog (CLICK HERE) and they only allow one photo upload a day. The picture on top is a blurred picture of my friend’s blanket basket and her guitar hero guitars for the wii on top. I figured that would explain Day 4 haha, we were freezing. Day 3 was us pigging out on her mother’s delectable homemade goodies, sushi that they ordered and of course the baby carrots ♥. Consisting of chocolate chip cookies, fudge cookies, brownies, etc.

Just last night I was talking to my boyfriend, and I was very very very angry, but not at him, just at the whole world. I haven’t been that angry in about three years from when one of my very good friends died and I didn’t know whether to be upset that he was gone, or to be angry because of how he died, and why I wasn’t invited to his funeral. Last night my angry way of speaking turned into me sobbing, and almost breaking my phone with how much of my salty tears got inside the keyboard. Lately, if anything starts to frustrate me or I start thinking about a situation that gets me mad, I can’t help but start to tear up and my face starts feeling hot. I really don’t know what is wrong with me and my boyfriend suggested that maybe I should go to a doctor. My mom doesn’t want me getting prescribed any anti-depressants and anti-anxiety pills because the first time I had been prescribed them was in fourth grade and my mood swings got even worse. The only thing was that during that time I wouldn’t cry, I would just get very angry really fast at everything, and then all of a sudden turn into a calm and happy person. Those pills, I feel, didn’t do anything for me but mess up my emotional stability.
I have to do a few things to settle this, and they are written in the order of which I will do them:

1. Take a pregnancy test(If positive, then to the next step; if negative go to the fourth step).
2. Go to a doctor to confirm and talk it over with my boyfriend and mother on what I should do.
3. Most likely schedule an abortion or pay for the abortion pill.
4. Go on with my life and wait for my period.
5. Go to a doctor/shrink about my emotional instability.
6. If that doesn’t help, just try to deal with everything by continuing to do what I love best: school, photography, guitar, web design and graphic design.

Now onto greener pastures, I have posted my Day 2 Picture of my 365 Pictures Project at my Fotolog(CLICK HERE) but I’ll post the second picture here as well:

I took this picture because these are the roses my boyfriend gave to me for New Years and all but one are now dead. This one rose won’t die and it makes me happy because I feel it was the most beautiful rose of the bunch.

I learned how to write a wordpress theme from scratch last night from this tutorial(CLICK HERE). And I will be working on wordpress themes for my visitors, as well as regular iframe layouts or puse XHTML layouts. I’m just about done practicing a certain song on the guitar so I will be posting my guitar playing and vocals as well. I saw a few movies on StageVu.com, most of them old, and I’m going to write reviews on them because I feel they deserve the attention. I have also seen a few movies in theatres with my boyfriend and my mom so I will be posting reviews for them as well.

Anyways I’m going to go return comments and possibly make a wordpress theme for my future domain =].

Candid and Emotional,
Lady Impulse