Here is my 2nd vlog, I thought I would basically write what I wrote in the video except I don’t think I mentioned the stalker. Enjoy! I’ll be commenting people later. :love:

2nd Vlog from Lady on Vimeo.

Haha my squeaky voice is high-larious.

First Vlog from Lady on Vimeo.
Haha I just wanted to test it out, enjoy the silly voice =]
Like my hat? haha

Day 19 of 365 . First off I would like to say that I am proud that even though I missed days to upload pictures, I have still uploaded pictures for everyday of my project since the beginning, not always on time, but taken on the correct date . Day 19 is a picture of my coffee/hot chocolate that I made. My boyfriend and I have recently been going to this delicatessen near his house and getting hot chocolate with french vanilla coffee and it tastes amazing, so I decided to use the coffee I have at home to make it today. My lava lamp is in the picture as well. I got the lava lamp a year and a half ago with my boyfriend when we took a shopping trip to Staten Island mall and I remember having so much fun walking around the mall with my baby ♥. You might notice a little painting in back of my coffee mug and I painted that about two years ago in my painting elective class in high school. I was so proud of it and I had another painting where I drew a beautiful eye on a green background but it fell in back of my bed and I am too weak to move my bed to get it out haha.
Anyways, enjoy my vlog and Day 19 picture

Just last night I was talking to my boyfriend, and I was very very very angry, but not at him, just at the whole world. I haven’t been that angry in about three years from when one of my very good friends died and I didn’t know whether to be upset that he was gone, or to be angry because of how he died, and why I wasn’t invited to his funeral. Last night my angry way of speaking turned into me sobbing, and almost breaking my phone with how much of my salty tears got inside the keyboard. Lately, if anything starts to frustrate me or I start thinking about a situation that gets me mad, I can’t help but start to tear up and my face starts feeling hot. I really don’t know what is wrong with me and my boyfriend suggested that maybe I should go to a doctor. My mom doesn’t want me getting prescribed any anti-depressants and anti-anxiety pills because the first time I had been prescribed them was in fourth grade and my mood swings got even worse. The only thing was that during that time I wouldn’t cry, I would just get very angry really fast at everything, and then all of a sudden turn into a calm and happy person. Those pills, I feel, didn’t do anything for me but mess up my emotional stability.
I have to do a few things to settle this, and they are written in the order of which I will do them:

1. Take a pregnancy test(If positive, then to the next step; if negative go to the fourth step).
2. Go to a doctor to confirm and talk it over with my boyfriend and mother on what I should do.
3. Most likely schedule an abortion or pay for the abortion pill.
4. Go on with my life and wait for my period.
5. Go to a doctor/shrink about my emotional instability.
6. If that doesn’t help, just try to deal with everything by continuing to do what I love best: school, photography, guitar, web design and graphic design.

Now onto greener pastures, I have posted my Day 2 Picture of my 365 Pictures Project at my Fotolog(CLICK HERE) but I’ll post the second picture here as well:

I took this picture because these are the roses my boyfriend gave to me for New Years and all but one are now dead. This one rose won’t die and it makes me happy because I feel it was the most beautiful rose of the bunch.

I learned how to write a wordpress theme from scratch last night from this tutorial(CLICK HERE). And I will be working on wordpress themes for my visitors, as well as regular iframe layouts or puse XHTML layouts. I’m just about done practicing a certain song on the guitar so I will be posting my guitar playing and vocals as well. I saw a few movies on StageVu.com, most of them old, and I’m going to write reviews on them because I feel they deserve the attention. I have also seen a few movies in theatres with my boyfriend and my mom so I will be posting reviews for them as well.

Anyways I’m going to go return comments and possibly make a wordpress theme for my future domain =].

Candid and Emotional,
Lady Impulse

1. the state or quality of being anonymous
2. an anonymous person: some fine poetry attributed to anonymities.

Such a wonderful word used for many wonderful things. My choice for anonymity is to avoid trouble with peers around my area, as well as problems with people over the internet. There was a time when a girl actually stalked me because she became obsessed with one of my older blogs, and according to her, it’s like we were best friends. At the time I was maybe 16 years old, whereas she was about 19, and it was the scariest occurrence in my life. Although worse could have happened, it didn’t and I would like to keep it that way. I might even write about things that may not be legal in certain countries, or things that should be kept secret but aren’t because of my public writing.

Some of the best writers out there write/wrote under a pseudonym, or for those that are used to lower diction, a pen name. Female writers started out writing under pseudonyms because there was no other way to get their work published. More than one author to a book or a book series resulted in just one pen name being listed. People banned from writing certain plots at certain points in history changed the racial origin of their pen names for the permission to publish. Some good examples are (written respectively): Karen Blixen, who wrote the famous Out of Africa, wrote under the male name of Isak Dinesen; Different contributors to Nancy Drew and The Hardy Boys resulted in keeping just the first name that started to write/publish them;  Brian O’Nolan used Flann O’Brien and Myles na gCopaleen for his writing (1940s – 1960s) because Irish Civil Servants were not allowed to write under their own names.

There are different reasons for anonymity and although I have shown my gender as a woman, as one may read in the About section, that will not stop the vulgarity and manly references I may make throughout my blog posts. I will talk about sex, I will talk about love, school, music I listen to, movies I review and love/hate, anything that comes to mind and is waiting to be published, will be on here.

I am determined to make something of myself, other than the schooling that I have already planned for the course of the next several years. It might be freelance writing or online magazine articles. I have no idea, but I will make something out of nothing, and a lot of it will be done freely due to the anonymity I will make for myself.

Au revoir et la bonne nuit,
Lady Impulse